NOTE: Do not get off your meds unless told to do so by your doctor!

-I am currently off my meds and have been for months now.. it was cool for a while.. wel actually wasn't.. but it seemed like i didnt need them because my mind convinces itself to beleive things sometimes.. but anyways I didnt willingly get off my meds its only because the VA refused to treat me because i received an Other Than Honorable discharge due to behavior issues..( which was do to my illness: but i have a lawyer right now soo you know)--- i basically have no insurance and am on disability but they dont offer health insurance and i cant find it in me to leave my house. i stay stuck here all day and when i leave its to get drunk with "friends" and i usually embarras myself if i drink too much.. i can hide my emotions and controll the random twitches associated with anxiety.. but its basically like shaking a can of coke.. when im home eventually ill explode and sit in my room for hours in a mental daze. this really sucks, i wish i would have just never joined the marines maybe i would have never been sexually assaulted and my life would be fine.. but who knows-- i know theres a lot i can do with myself now but im just so afraid to do things on my own, im afraid to let my family get involved jus like some of you- they just dont understand.. i hate to be looked at with pity. ive been diagnosed for years now.. i understand all of you and wish you all the best..