Definitely talk to your doctor about whether the medication is the best fit for you right now. It took me a lot of trial and error to find a decent combo and even now I'm looking at maybe needing to push for another change after 5+ years on something that was working (I'm decompensating currently as noted in my post).

I also find writing things out on a forum like this helpful. It's different than a therapist and seems to just provide some relief to write it out in a place where people understand how hard things can get.