No therapist yet. Who do you tell? I want to tell my husband but I m sooooo ashamed. I ve disappointed him some much in life as it is. I want to tell him but the words don t come out and it's like I couldn t even if I wanted to. He has been my best friend for 22 years. Through all the craziness and now? Sal will be angry. He is so angry for just being in here. He is almost always coming out any more. I hardly can keep any control. He isn t trying to push my husband away! Oh my God I did not write the word isn t, it was is! Anything I write takes for ever because I reread and what I wrote was not what I am saying in my head. Half sentences twice or double words too. Then there's all the pressure in my head. Like I m trying to push and push but I can t get where I want to be. Please does this make sense? Then comes the nausea. Please am I losing my mind? Is this where I need to be because don t know where to ask questions