Hello Dear,
I think "change" and "things getting better" are different. Not all change is good, but things getting better is always good. In therapy, I learn to "look at things differently", sometimes, that's all it takes. Questioning "self talk" can sometimes shed new light on things. I know that life situations can be very difficult but I also know from your other posts that you are a strong, caring, and determined individual. We're here for you when it's difficult to be here for yourself.
Safe and Gentle Hugs, Anne