Soul,

I know exactly what you're saying. I was taking a med that made things so clear, I even questioned why I was in therapy, I felt sooooo good. I wasn't able to take it any more for medical reasons, but while I had those times of clarity, I did "miss" those internal thoughts because they had become my "friend" so to speak. It is difficult to discribe, I agree. So, I decided to use those moments of clarity to further my progress - take the good days and use them and try to remember how I felt when I had bad days. I still have bad days, more so than good, but - that's the cycle I guess.

I'm glad you're feeling better and wish you many more days like that!