Things are going better. I've learned to stretch that Unemployment check further than I would have thought possible. I was granted food stamps, and the amount was more generous than I would have expected. I am using my credit cards a bit, but not taking out any high-interest loans, or applying for any new credit. (I get letters all the time offering to loan me money at high rates, and I throw them away immediately.)

Today, I got a lead on a job and I feel there is a reasonable chance that I might get it.

For some reason, I have just stopped being as terribly afraid as I was when I started this thread. That may be because a good amount of time has passed without anything terrible happening.

I have done what I need to do to apply for low-income housing assistance. The advocacy agency that is helping me with that said I might get approved in about 4 months (for Section 8 voucher).

I feel I have made the appropriate choice (for me) in not planning to apply for SSDI, but believing that I will become employed again.

To: gma45, You must be under terrible stress, but you may find a way to feel less threatened, as I did. I truly hope so. Some days you may feel like you can do nothing. On better days, do at least one thing to move towards solving your problem. Good Luck!