I'm sorry for the situation you are in. Here's my take on it.
The beginning of a relationship (and by this I mean first 6 months to 2 years) is considered the honeymoon phase. This is when you get those butterfly loving feelings, can't stand to be apart, the world is your oyster. It's the courting period where you are getting to know each other and building the relationship.
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up untill about 2 months ago i began to fall out of love with him. which makes no since bc he is the only guy that has ever respected me and treated me better then any guy i have been with
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Love is more than being respected and treated well. I saw in your profile you are a survivor of childhood SAb, from what I know of the world, that's probably going to hugely impact your relationships in a number of ways.
1. You may find yourself attracted to the wrong guys (you said that other guys haven't treated you well)
2. You may have troubles with intimacy which may be causing you to want to flee as your relationship gets closer
3. You may rush into things too quick
People change a lot at 19, you are still growing into your adult-self so maybe something in your or his character no longer works. Can you make a list of what it is that you love about him?
I believe in every relationship, there are things that are going to irk you about the other person. And it's natural for those to become apart once the honeymoon phase is over. BUT the one that you listed is a huge one. It's not that he leaves his socks on the coffee table, he's not giving you honesty.
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he lies to me constanty. and then denies it when i have caught it
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I'm going to be blunt, but it's only because I've been at the end of this spiral. If he does this, it WILL destroy your relationship. I believe 99% of the world says they would never cheat. But the number 1 cause of divorce is infidelity and an expected 50% of marriages are hurt by it. Obviously, some of those people who said they would never cheat ended up doing it. I could get into the path of how that happens, but that seems off topic. I will tell you that after 5 years with my bf, in a very stable, monogamous, relationship, I can safely I knew him pretty well. And he would be the LAST on my list of people I ever expected to cheat on someone. But he did. And it #$!^-ing sucked!
So now my questions for you,
1. Do you have an agreement on facebook chats? Has it been decided that you will not chat with members of the opposite sex?
2. Were these messages inappropriate by the standards of your relationship?
If you don't love him anymore, please do not marry him. It won't fix things, it will make them harder. If you are unsure of the relationship, please do not marry him right now. Postpone the wedding, say you want to finish school, have a steadier job, whatever you like. If you stay together, require him to go to T to find out why he's consistently lying to you and seeking validation outside the relationship. Go to some couple's counselling sessions.
Hon, I'm sorry for all of this, but don't rush into it because you're afraid. There are good guys out there and if this one isn't the right one, you WILL find the right one. You deserve honesty. You deserve faithfulness and loyalty. You deserve to be in a relationship/marriage where you both love each other
