First of all (((((googley))))))

Trauma processing is hard no doubt about that. I agree with Open Eyes in that
nuturing is important. Also, we have learned that your mind gives you no more then you can handle and many a times I had backed up trauma...the kind of processing that makes you feel that maybe it's not worth doing. Hang in there and use everything you can think of to deal. I still think drawing the left over trauma processing is so important cause it helps you get it Out of ya... something a therapist told me once, every processing that you do, reward yourself by getting something you like. Also if you draw something dark follow it up with a pleasent picture that grounds you...
Remember though (((googley))) reward yourself and reward the process, inch by inch you will get through it... Way to ask for help!!!

Were here googley if you ever need to talk or just sitting with you I would do in a heartbeat if you need it... just ask! Take Care... and know your thought of even more... Peace... and Crew