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Old Jul 28, 2011, 09:21 AM
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Think that listening to what your heart is telling you about your BF is very important & it's telling you so much more than you probably even realize. It's very important to listen to what you are now feeling. It's probably MORE than even just resentment.

I think that being away from a person & not even thinking about them & not having your "heart grow fonder" is a very important sign that there are not the true feelings there necessary for a real relationship with the other person.

I know that when I went to close on my farm & was away from my husband who I had been with for 33 years, I had absolutely NO feelings for him & had no desire to ever be around him again. It was a complete relief & it gave me the space to really analyze my feelings....looked back & realized that I hadn't really ever LOVED him from the beginning of the marriage & there had always been issues that were there that caused me not to respect him which is a key ingredient to a successful marriage. I can't love (in the marriage way) someone I don't respect.

I'm guessing that all the things that have been bothering you about him are things that in the back of your mind from the beginning were things that made you uncomfortable about really wanting to commit to the relationship in the first place.

Yes, being taken for granted & not being told that you are cared about is a key issue to an unsuccessful relationship. When you just go from fight to fight in order to get him to say or do something nice for you, it's a key to his background & the way he saw things as he was growing up.......but it also could be key to the way he really feels about you also.....because it's at the times of the fighting where he may fear loosing you (or at least having you around to be his GF). That doesn't show real love or caring for you. However what you may be expecting is the PERFECT person in a relationship & most of the time there are always BUGS that need to be worked out in any relationship.

Only you can analyze the whole picture in your relationship. I know for me it wasn't just needing my H affection....it was 100's of issues that we had between us & they were all different things...& being able to trust him to take care of things when I couldn't was the biggest. I knew after all we went through that in our old age, I couldn't trust him to take care of all the things around us if I were the one who was needing the care & wasn't the one to be doing the caring. I couldn't get true answers to questions I asked in order to base important decisions I needed to make (had nothing to do with cheating). I realized that I was so much better off knowing everything about my own life & business as I couldn't trust him for valuable input either.....when I listened to him & followed him advice, I always ended up doing something really wrong........it was all these things about him that caused me to feel absolutely NOTHING for him when I left thinking at first it was only temporary

Use your logical mind to analyze your relationship & if there are more things going on that you haven't realized under it all, then your gut feeling is probably guiding your thoughts in the right direction. If it's just the affection issue (which is a large one in a relationship) then maybe he really did "get it" & things can possibly really change now that he realizes how it really feels.
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