Thank you for responding, Sophia57 & hoosiergrad. It means a lot to me.

I guess I was just used to trying to ignore what happened in my worst manic episode, trying to shut it out of my mind. Now that I have all these triggering things staring me in the face, I'll have to go through them and try to put a positive spin on it. Yes, I was sick, but I have been stable for almost 3 months and I'm doing pretty good! It'll be a slow process though, maybe I'll just sort through a small amount each day instead of all of it at once.