I feel my depression setting in and it feels as if i cant control it.

My life has just been throwin upside down and shakin.I was having an amazing time from june till october,I made amazing new friends stoped taking my anti deppresents and was having the time of my life.Now life is horrible i wake up crying most days though the past couple months i have been getting sicker and sicker to the point that i didnt want to do anyhting but sleep which i found out a couple weeks ago was cancer.So now im dealing with that,no top of that my Doctor just found out i was sexually abused so hes trying to get me help for that but im not ready to deal with it and he made me go back on my meds. Everything is so crazy im not sure what to do anymore but run aorund in circles.

I have the most amazing friends in the world that are trying to support me though this all but i want to be strong for them and not show them how im feeling.Im also scared im gonna lose alot of them casue i have to move home so my parents can look after me during chemo and we will just drift apart.

srry for the rant im just scared to fall in as deep as i was before and the meds only seem to be making it worse