You have come a long way madisgram and your work to do so has been a gift to others as well. And I know you have fought against layers of negetive input over many years and as they have mentioned here, you learned how to do it to yourself as well by treating yourself as others have treated you.
But you are proof that one can change that and it is in layers as you describe and it does take conscious effort. But it can be done no matter what age a person is. It is not about condeming the layers but seeing how they effected you and learning how to overcome the effects they had on the way you treat yourself.

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