I haven't had my ED in a long time been in recovery for 5 years. Things got rough the last couple of Days with my home life and with my Dr not knowing what to do with me. So I turned to ED for control thought it was my only option besides when I'm in that state of mind now body bothers me. My family lets me do it they know if they but in I will trigger and they don't want that because if that happen I will explode and they are afraid of that. I hate having people helping me all the time. My pain disorder just wish it would go away but it's here to stay. I'm sure ED is only temporally and I will get a grip soon but for now it's my comfort zone I need it. much love JoDee