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~Christina · Jul 28, 2011, 07:41 PM

OK Update on my nuttiness LOL ..

I did see my T today and as I suspected I am rapid cycling ,,,Oh joy .. he is going to talk to my Pdoc and most likely I will be either upping my medication or my likely i expect to be adding another medication along with Seraquel .. ** Sigh**

My T and I did has a long discussion about the fact that I am having trouble " admitting " to myself that I do infact has Bipolar I .. I think I am typical in not wanting to admit I have a legitimate illness.. Yes... its not differant than if I were diabetic or had a heart problem .. But Im sure as many of you have dealth with its just kinda hard to "admit and learn to live with bipolar " .. I have had Bipolar I now I believe all my life.. But I was always able to keep all the balls in the air and keep moving forward and raising my daughter and basically handling life.. well NOW I really have to face reality and come to terms withmy illness, because it has turned my life completly upside down...

So for now Im going to just wait and hear back what my Pdoc wants to do about my "medication management" of my illness.

My T is such a help to me .. Im very grateful that I feel comfortable enough to be completly honest with him and his willingness to help me.

Thanks everyone

Wishing you all some Peace