Accepting memory loss is hard. I've actually had some memory loss, and the way that I tried to get some of the memories back, was to look at pictures or written material.

Now accepting that it happened no matter the way it was loss, that is hard. But one thing to be grateful for is the fact you can't remember the bad times. (I hope) It's at least something to smile about.

Remember healing takes time, it doesn't happen over night... no matter how much we want it to. Take it one day at a time, that's all you can do. Or if needed one moment at a time. I hope this helps, and I hope you get through this moment.