Avoice what would your response be if it was someone else saying this? I have listened to your response before, you know what is right for you. You were in Control for five years. You are not in control in ED. You should get therapy and work out your frustration. Everyone is struggling and it is hard to know what to do.
But you know in your heart that giving in wont really make your life better, and it wont solve your problems. You already know that ED just adds problems and guilt.

Your holding your anger and frustration in and punishing yourself.

You could share your problems here and maybe we can help by talking to you or listening. ED is being angry and taking it out on yourself, you do know that.
Are there any support groups around you that can help you?

Sweetheart I understand it is hard and anger and frustration is a trigger for you, me too. Maybe you can start like I do, the past few days were hard and I am having a hard time, but everyday I am going to make a conscious effort to over come the anger and make sure I take care of myself. And you know that means keeping control and not giving in to ED. You have learned what it means, You have fought through it, and YOU know YOU can do it, YOU have to remember it is only thoughts and emotions and YOU can over come these thoughts and emotions without harming yourself.

I hope you get help avoice, I am here to listen. I wish I could talk to you as well you did to that other young woman with ED. I am trying.

Open Eyes