I have posted about this problem, how i messed up,acting out in this way is a symptom of my mania. No matter how much I love my husband or how good he is because believe me he is one of the last few good ones, when I am stugling with this cycle, like now I miss the other guy,Think of calling him,How crazy is that! thank you for bringing it up because I would not have admitted it here again that I am still having these problems. knowing I am not alone makes me feel less like slime. I need advice.Thank you Adeline for being strong , and opening up this topic. I was to ashamed!!!