First of all, I am not sure if anybody else out there feels like this so don't think I am crazy.

I am a 25 year old male and I have a male bonding fetish in that I really enjoy hanging with a buddy and us both being shirtless with our arms around each other. For some reason that is extremely fulfilling and satisfying for me. However, I have no desire for any sexual relationship with a guy and even kissing a guy is disgusting to me. In college me and my best buddy hung around like that all the time but when I was 22 we had a falling out and plus I moved halfway across the country. I would LOVE to find another dude who I could bond with in this manner, but most of my buddies would think it weird and that I was coming onto them if I attempted it, and my gay friends always want to take it beyond that into something sexual which I am not interested in.

If this desire cannot be fulfilled, I wish there is someway I could just make it go away.

Any advice?