Thanks i appreciate it. Does anybody 'punish' themselves when they're down? I starve myself, right n0w i'm refusing to eat bcoz i upset bf and i'm the reas0n i feel crap... I kn0w i shouldn't but i can't seem 2 find my way to the kitchen. Is this n0rmal? I'm questi0ning EVERYTHING bcoz i've just been informed that people d0n't usually get 'signs fr0m God'... I'm a freak,and a lonely one at that.