Hi pegasus

Listening to you ... you actually raised another question that for some reason I struggle with.

I at some points "hear" what the doctors are saying, but I get a better perspective from the ppl here b/c they are going through it.

What you are describing to me "I was nothing, nobody, useless, terrible and an it." Sounds like depressive thoughts and feelings, which at some points I have.

I even think I might have those feeling because I feel so apart from myself.

I know that the doctor is right that I suffer from depersonalization, but DID (the different forms) I just struggle with. I don't have alters ...I just have issues with memory presently and past. Past can be big chunks of time.

I also presently have conversations and do things that I have no recollection. Then there is some of what I was describing, which is making me feel panicky.

I feel like I'm walking in a "shell" of a body that is foreign to me and my mind I struggle for what little control I have.

Not sure if I'm making sense.

Thanks for your imput pegasus...you weren't butting in at all.

Eva