Hi Willow {{{{{{{{{{{{{{{hugs}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}}
It's almost like you're just watching yourself interact with others, isn't it? I know the feeling - that disassociation with yourself and people.
I have not been able to breach that space, I have tried although not with my best effort I admit.
I'm sorry that you are having problems with that sensation. I hope that you are able to work through it and be comfortable with the results.
Mary Alice