I'm such a prude (thanks to Irish Catholic background) that I really do beat myself up about it. I've often thought of getting a vibrator, but I don't know where I could get one online, and haven't wanted to google it, in case I get all sorts of rubbish on my computer. I could never walk into a sex shop, and I was never able to ask my previous partners (the men I married) whether they could find one for me. And I also worry about if I died and my father or son found it... You know the Auden poem "they f you up your Mum and Dad, they may not mean to, but they do..." It wasn't just my Mum and Dad, it was those blasted nuns. NEVER send your child to Catholic school!