Twisted Soul,

It takes a long time to learn to TRUST the therapist, especially if you have been hurt in the past.

In the early days I used to go to therapy and say, something like,
"I'm fine thank you, see you next week!"

The truth was that I was'nt fine but was frightened and scared and unsure whether my T was trust-worthy.

It takes time to build up that special relationship where you are able to share your true feelings with your T.

Please don't beat yourself up about this. YOU are not the worst person in the world!

Hugs