Growing up I use to have a few close friends and those are the people that I have kept in contact with throughout the years, but it is very distant. At this point, I wouldn't even consider them friends anymore. I literally have no one that I am close to or no one that really knows me. I consider myself a loner too. I stay in every weekend when others have things to do and people to see. It gets lonely and I'm sure at some point it will have to change, because humans just can't function normally without some sort of close human interaction. I'm not ready for that change yet and maybe you aren't there yet either. Take these moments to sort through your feelings and realize what you have to work on to change. In the meantime, we are all here for you and friends! *hugs*