We had my sons birthday party today. Normally when we have birthday parties I crumble from stress and anxiety into a puddle on the floor.

Today I actually managed to finish his crazy elaborate cake, clean the house and patio, managed all the food, and kept the kids busy. I kept it together the whole time before during and after. I didn't get anxious or stressed at all. This is a huge feat for me right now considering where I have been with my mood for the last few months. And I just needed to gloat a lil I haven't felt proud of myself for a long time.

I just can't believe how much better I feel than just a few short days ago. Wow what a difference that little increase made. Now to just find a better med than zyprexa, I fear the weight gain is going to make it impossible for me to comply and the anorexia is creeping it's way back to the top. A med change will help hopefully.