Other than suicidal, I've experienced all of these things at one point or another. I haven't cut in about 2 or 3 years, mainly because as my mania started to increase, I felt too overly-narcissistic to feel any benefit from harming myself. Though that's not to say that I don't harm myself worse emotionally/mentally. Suffice it to say-- I am in the exact same boat as you are. I have Bipolar & only recently realized that I have PTSD due to my Mother's bipolar episodes. And, though I don't need to repeat what everyone else has said, your T was being an insensitive asshole. Don't let him bother you any. Absolutely NO ONE is "run of the mill" crazy. We're all simply crazy.