I get rapid cycling myself, especially during a mixed episode. Most of the time I feel apathetic, yet agitated & hyperactive & talkative... But there are some times during the day where I either feel overly giddy & exciteable, yet others where I feel miserable & self-loathing... The reason why I even chose to come back to these forums again after leaving for about a month & a half is due to this type of episode. I've been simply bouncing off of the ****ing walls lately. And between BP, as well as racing/repetitive thoughts due to OCD, my mind feels like jelly. Though, I don't have any therapist yet due to a lack of insurance. All I can say is that I wish you the best & it will eventually pass-- It always seems to, especially after you FINALLY get used to being uncontrollably nuts.