What dreams did you have for your life that died because of having BP Disorder?

My dream has always been to be a performer, either musician or actress.

BP killed this dream of mine because when I got really, really sick, I couldn't even perform a single task.

I remember when I volunteered for a blood drive, all I had to do was write down peoples names as they came in to give blood. I totally freaked out, my stress level went to 100% and I just got up and walked out.

I knew then that I would never be able to realize my dream because I freak out at the most simpliest tasks.

What dream of yours died because of BP Disorder?