Your so right tsol. I was hard on the counselor. I should have seen how she was "wording it". Interestingly enough I do try to replace the image. Sometimes what calms me down is the fact that I shrug the image off, and replace it right before ejaculation (thank goodness). And yes, I now feel that I have to restrict myself around children. Nor because I'll sickly enjoy "something", but I just get weirded out. Sometimes I can go6 months with a clear head, but even if I shrug the image off, its like my subconscious is saying "too late, your still a bad person."

I often do feel bad around women. Like I am gonna do something to dislike me, so I keep my distance.