actually i'v known hom for 4 but we've been dating for 2, but the first 2 i knew him we only talked on the phone and the net, then we met and started going out, his living situation is really ackward, he dated this girl for a few months and she ived with him, then she dumped him for his brother, and now she ives with in in the next room, at first i had a huge problem with that, but i like her we have a lot in common, but i'm 16 and he's 20 and i think part of the problem is that i scared hem really bad, i thought i might have been pregnant and i told him, but when he went to the doctor we found out that he can't have kids, i think that might be part of his problem, i know when he gets older and gets his life in order he wants to have kids, and maybe knowing thaat he might not ever be able to hurts him, i know it would hurt me, but he did tell me he loves me, and when he first said it i didn't really say anything, i was to scared to, i have a really bad dating history lol, but the next day i looked in his eyes and i fell so hard for him, when he wrote me he didn;t sigh the letter like he normally does with "i love you" or "love always, carl" he said "ttly, carl" i was so upset by that, it was like someone had put a bullet in my heart, i'm still waiting to see if he writes back to me again, i asked him whats going on with us, the waiting is killing me, he might not get on till 5am, and i have to be up at 8 lol, but i need to talk to him the matter how little sleep i get