You know _Sky you are right ...but it did take the help of alot of people here...I have no support on the outside...a choice I made long ago to end any trust for so called friends and family...and all it took was asking for help for the people I thought were my friends to disappear...my family are the same, if it weren't for my knowledge of computers they would disappear too...I lived by myself for years in the basement of the house that burned to the ground...and do you know how many visitors I had in those years...3...3 people actually saw my home and none of these people were family...the only regular visitor I had was the landlord and it was rather pathetic the way I would set out cookies and chips and dip and have coffee and tea made...when she would come for the rent I would try to talk her into staying for tea or coffee...but alas she was there for the rent not socialization...the only friend I had was a goofball cat named Jack...I smile now remembering some of the times he would comfort me when I was feeling especially down and I swear he knew when that was...he would come and sit on my couch and rub against me and put his little paws on my chest and lick away my tears...not the softest of tongues but bless his little heart I loved him for it...of course he didn't like the hugs I would give him and he would squirm away but he'd always come back and lay beside me and we'd watch TV or play on the computer...He isn't with me at the moment...he is living at the kennel I used to work at and apparently he's taken over...the kennel is situated outside the city wher I live so I don't get to see him very much...I seem to have forgotten what I was posting here...lol...oh yeah...duh...thanks _Sky and KimmyDawn...