It's always been this way, but it gets more hurtful as I get older.
I'm in a difficult spot. for some reason love has always been equated with submissiveness, so not listening is disrespectful. They've told me that if I don't listen to them (not in regards to this specifically, just in general) I'll get kicked out and I have no where to go. I feel so stupid, that it's my fault I allowed all the measures to control me to implemented, and now I'm powerless.