Hi harley2,
I am sorry that you are still struggling with PTSD. I am too and it is not easy to overcome it. I have panic attacks too and I agree that they are the worst and seem to come from no where. I had a decent day yesterday and worked and got home and was tending to my horses and one just hit and I had to stop and sit down.

I usually am pretty good at handling the triggers that bring one on, but yesterday I don't know what happened it just came. I have been able to minimize the flashbacks and havent had one for over a month now.

I have to confess that I am still struggling with PTSD and have had it for a while.
But, I was not aware of how much it was effecting me until the last year. I have been trying to understand it better and deal with it and it is a very slow process.
And I have to admit that I haven't had a good therpist yet that has really helped me.
I have been seeing a new one and am not sure he is helping much either but it is still to early to tell.

Most of my time has been directed towards trying to look at my past and recognize the experiences that I thought I had coped with and I guess I hadn't . I am making efforts to consciously deal with them separately and there is a lot so it is taking me time.

Are you experiencing something stressful now that could be making it hard for you to
put things from your past in a place in your mind where you have dealt with them?

I know my biggest problem is that I am trapped in an event that really broke me.
And I am still paying for it everyday and I have to work to keep paying on the expense of something that was caused by someones neglegence.

So what is going on in your life today that may be making your past difficult to overcome and move on? That is one consideration. You have to understand all your triggers. What are your flashbacks saying, I learned things from mine and had to consciously address them with all the events and sounds and what I saw in them.

Open Eyes