GREENFAIRY
2 yeats... then yesterday. yesterday was superficial. You count one to ten - reasons I have too.... I'm stil trying to reason my other 190+. I don't do it to be bad. It hurts so much inside (no one can see that pain)... but blood can be seen and when I bleed I know I hurt. The severity of the trauma of my childhood (or lack thereof), of lost family, of abuse, of my children being taken from me (after rasing them for 10 years)....more than I can bear. I EXIST to be there from visit to visit. I lost hope the day my children wree taken away because I was diagnosed manic-depressive....I'm still trying to find the reason to pick it back up. I hope I can claim 12 years some day like you. Can a person that hs known nothing but pain from childhood through 30, ever find there is other?