Anger terrifies me, Rhap. I can be stern, but true fury is ... I can't even describe it.

I can relate to this so much Jan, but we know we'll never heal unless we face it, right?
And just that thought is enough to shut me down.

It is very scary, isn't it. ((((( Jan )))))

I tried to tell my T how it almost feels life threatening.

I get mad all the time, but not angry.

In my own case I think it's because if I let myself truly feel the anger--

if I unleash the fury that rages inside--

I just might become one of them.

You are brave for posting this. I know how hard it is for you. You done good Elf sister.