i find myself now being completely withdrawn. im at home the whole time and dont go out of my way to invitee friends over or go see family.

I only talk to people now when they txt me or ring me. Im not a loner and i do like people but i think some times why would someone want to spend time with me because im boring. if someone calls into me at home im anxious the whole time there here and talk really fast and pace about. If it goes quiet for a minute even if its just because someone is doing something i feel really uncomfortable and start talking again.

As for romantic relationships i have no desire at the minute to be in one which makes me feel odd. i used to put myself under pressure to find a relationship because thats what normal people do but im to afraid of rejection and always think that im not good enough for the other person why the hell are they with me.