Hmmm. Now that all that's said.... I 'm not sure of what finish line you're speaking.

I risk saying this, because the thread is in the PTSD forum. There is no cure for PTSD (dare I say, Yet?) Are you heading towards a realistic goal here?

Sorry, Petunia,.... but part of my accepting my disability is making me review my thoughts about any "finish line" that I thought there was for me.

Can you share just what "ends" you are searching for and "seeing?"