So, as I mentioned recently in the addictions page, I finaklly quit smoking (weed) for good a couple months ago. since then I decided to not renew my antidepressant/antianxiety pill and see how I do. I met with my psychiatrist a couple days after making this decision and she said prozac has a long half life and prescribed a low dose of zoloft, as I told her that I didn't think I needed to take it anymore. I have a follow up meeting with her later this week. I haven't filled the prescription, and haven't had any depresed or anxiety like syptoms. Granted, I've had momentary anxious thoughts, but for good cause and nothing like before, and no influx of the depression I had before. So I'm thinking of not taking them anymore and saying so when I meeting with my psychiatrist. Though I've begun to notice an increase of manic like symptoms. Joking and laughing more than usual, having more energy with less sleep, etc. Granted when I wake up it's hard, but after about half hour, once I'm fully awake, I'm AWAKE. Sure, I'll still yawn occasionally throughout the day, but I'm not dead tired yawning or anything. I was on the DID page because I felt like I had an issue with that but I'm thinking it's more thinking too fast because I'll have momentary breaks being able to think, but that might just be from sleeping less than before. I don't know, perhaps it's the side effect of less sleep. But I never get less than about 6 or so hours of sleep a night.
When I say I'm laughing more than usual, I'm not talking just straight up being more joyful, but I mean, laughing more intensly to things to the point where I feel like I'm intoxicated when I'm not. It's starting to feel like my personality is changing or something. a couple years ago I stopped smoking for nearly half a year, wasn't even on medication for anything at the time, and did not act like I am now. It's really not like me. I mean, it's fun, but I'm worried it might belie something more serious. Of course, that just might be me over thinking it too much, it's prbably just a manic episode, as I've begun to suspect I'm a bit bipolar. Who knows, I'm not a certified PH D., I only go my B.A. Well, catch y'all later, I need to check my fave sites.