Thanks Bebop, I appreicate the reply and encourgement. No, My husband was not in a hospice. He was in hospital. But I will ask my counselor, if he know of one locally. It ia time to check in with him anyway. As far as hobbies and staying busy, I got that covered. The problem is he is suppost to be here helping me remodel our house. Also have lots of flower gardens and a small vegatable garden. Really I have to much to do, but it does keep me busy. But everything in my life job, house etc; I am use to talking to him or having him help so it just makes me miss him more. Thanks for letting me ramble on.