It helps to vent where people understand. I am so sorry you are going through this, however, had you gotten your symptoms checked out right away, you may have been able to avoid the symptoms you are having now. I do also know that when you are depressed, you could really care less about yourself.

It's a never-ending cycle of bullcrap it seems, but you can always count on us to listen, if nothing else.

I hope you don't have a tumor, that would be terrible. GO TO THE DOCTOR, PLEASE!