Yes, I want to cut too! I already burned myself with cig. Yes I just got a tatoo on my left arm that says JUST BREATHE that is suppose to stop me in circumstances like this but **** it!! I want the physical pain! I want to hurt in a physical way! ****!! Screw meaning behind the ****ing tatoo, Screw AA, Screw being ****en sober, if I want to drink I will! She isnt gonna ever be my friend in AA or anywhere else. Restraining order, go ahead, it wouldnt be the first time I had one! Just called T to vent to her about what she told me in a phone call last week. Its still burning me up! She told me that "I am burning her out"!! WTF! Cut again and again!!! I am "burning out" everyone around me, son's T wants a restraining order if I continue, and my own T is burnt out. And you ****ing wonder why I am only 10 days sober, and continue to self harm myself. Go figure! As for therapy for son, and his group...ahaahahahaah you want me to bring him to your office after you just told me that your close to having a restraining order against me! Damn some ****ing guts you have! I am sorry I damn ****ing exist!!!!