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i wanted to give grace to some of you in case children are present.

anne, hun, first of all ((((((iamanne)))))))

Second of all, you are doing so well! I am proud of you! You inspire me, who hasn't even really found her niche yet in therapy, who hasnt really even started to delve.. you inspire me that even though it might get tough I can do it.

You know, if you cant talk right now, well, you cant talk.
I look at it this simply.

But at the same time, you can reach out without speaking. You can send me an icon or smiley that means you need a hug or support, or anything! Anyone can do this.

maybe we should have an agreed upon smiley where if you are scared, you can post just the smiley and people will know you are challenged right now.



I like the above.

my father is a bad man too. but you know I always felt more sad for him than angry, and that is my downfall. I do not know how to get angry, I saw so much anger in my childhood, Im scared to death if I let myself get angry, I might be the same way. So I just dont get angry.
Ever.

not joking, ill cry for hours but I cant get angry.

I too experience the hurt as here and now. I feel physical pain. I experience pains in areas where I was hurt, again. As if It was happening.

Certain objects if I see them i will feel pain.

I know where you are coming from. This isint much but its all I have to offer, besides my love.

Keep in mind that T can't always be positive, or else you wouldn't face anything would you? I had a T who was too positive. She was a everything is wonderful sweep everything under the rug kind of person. It did me no good in the end thats exactly where I ended up, and here I am now going over this %#@&#! again. lol

We have to realize that T is human too, and we are human, and you know what? humans are damned full of mistakes, and that is FINE.
As long as we recognize the mistake, and at least try and remember how we made it.

i am full of rainbowzz.




ill tell the story of why I came to be rainbowzz sometime soon. Im not quite ready.