Debbie I totally agree with you. We watched him suffer so much in the last week of his life and when he finally passed it was almost a relief. Yes we already miss him deeply but after seeing him that way I just can't cry. I cried my tears while he was suffering I think. He didn't even look like he had been sick laying there in the casket. That I think made it alot easier on all of us and our faith in God. I really appreciate your kind words. It also helps to know I have the friends here in pc that I have. Thank you so much for being here for me