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Originally Posted by emptybee15
It helps to vent where people understand. I am so sorry you are going through this, however, had you gotten your symptoms checked out right away, you may have been able to avoid the symptoms you are having now. I do also know that when you are depressed, you could really care less about yourself.
It's a never-ending cycle of bullcrap it seems, but you can always count on us to listen, if nothing else.
I hope you don't have a tumor, that would be terrible. GO TO THE DOCTOR, PLEASE!
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Yeah, I know. I wish I could go back in time, but I can't. And I know I should go now, but I get really scared and chicken out every time I try. I know with about 90% certain that something's REALLY wrong, and I'm like not ready to deal with all of the changes that would occur in my own life and in my family's say I had to undergo potentially fatal brain surgery or something. And yes I know it's illogical to think this way; it's hard to explain it to someone who isn't me. I wish I wasn't on my dad's stupid insurance...I think it may be easier to go if I didn't have to consult with him to make the appointment because he's the type of person who thrives off of insulting people, and everytime I go anywhere or do anything with him, he spends the whole time asking me why I'm such a moron and why I can't be perfect like him.
Anyway, thank you for your well wishes and kind thoughts. I didn't come here thinking anyone would have a magical answer for me; I just needed to talk to human beings for once, I guess.