so i go to work today. the friend i called this weekend to talk to, who has assured me up and down that he would be there for me, come help in the middle of the night if needed, but then did not respond to me, just gave me a jovial "hi kaliope" like he does everytime he sees me. no mention of missing my call saturday night, no checking to see if i am alright when he knows how poorly i have been doing lately. i know i am feeling sorry for myself. its just that he has always made such a big deal about being there for me because he has issues too and understands where i go.