My brain hurts from reading half of the dialogue that just occured right here, so I'm going to resist the urge to pick it apart or figure out who I want to demean or side with, haha. My concentration fails me.

However, Chelseamonster, I have a question for you. Have you ever considered Bipolar type I? I've not been officially diagnosed with ASPD, but the manic/hypomanic episodes ASSUREDLY (at least in my case) lead to just about all of the aforementioned "symptoms". And seeing as mania takes up most of my time, save for the few instances where I use my "games" to convince myself to give up on something or other which I suppose is depressing in contrast, it was very easy to assume myself with this diagnosis before going further down the rabbit hole into the sticky territory of mood disorders.

An interesting factor is that a lot of children with conduct disorders could also have had child-onset bipolar disorder. The model from the DSM is specifically for adults, but they have been doing a lot more research into better ways of diagnosing children properly as it is practically impossible with the guidelines they have as of today.

I'll spare myself having to form a coherent train of thought & just give you a link to a list of observed childhood symptoms. Though it isn't the MOST reliable site, it supports research I've done in the past via a psychology newsletter I stopped subscribing to due to spam emails I wasn't interested in.

http://bipolar.about.com/cs/kids_diag/a/red_flags4.htm

Hope it helps. When you've already decided on what certain parts of your personality could be explained by, it's a lot harder to explore the actual sea of possibilities. Even if you ARE diagnosed with anything, should you decide to "knock your **** off" so to speak & get down to your T's level, you must realize that you were still this person before your diagnosis & you would continue to be this person even if it didn't have a convenient definition. Abnormal psychology has helped many, but it has also unnecessarily complicated the life of people who are on their own journies to figuring themselves out by giving them a diagnostic scapegoat for their behaviours/actions.