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Originally Posted by FullcircleClear
Hi everyone,
I'm asking anyone here who is a trained Psychologist and/or Psychiatrist. It's my hope that at least I could get a label of sorts for what this is called. I've had some pretty significant trauma in my life(I'm 41, male and single). When I was 22, I had a friend who was murdered by a serial killer. When I was 23-27 I was stalked for 4 years. Also, I am the adult child of a mother who has been diagnosed with BPD(Borderline Personality Disorder) and a father who has been diagnosed with NPD(Narcissistic Personality disorder). I left home fairly late(28 years old). I've been through a very high level of extreme emotional and verbal abuse for the first almost 30 years of life.
Anyway..my dilemma:
In the past calender year or so, I've had this feeling of..I see this name "Peter Ward" on my college graduation diploma and I look at my high school yearbook and there is someone whose photo bears a strong resemblance to mine with the same name. I even have vivid memories of events, stories,etc. of this guy named Peter Ward. And yet?(this being the problem). I feel like I am NOT him.
I almost feel like I remember the memories of this guy and details about his life..except I feel like those memories did not happen to ME. I feel like I am looking at those memories almost as a 3rd person. Like they are in my mind..but almost like up on a movie screen..so there is "memory A" with no feeling like it happened experientially TO ME.
There is another important facet to all of this. I DON'T believe that I am experiencing multiple personality disorder since doesn't MPD mean that someone has distinct different mannerisms, actions, behaviors, tastes, ways of dress, etc. that all reside WITHIN the same person? So..I don't see "Peter Ward" on my drivers license and yet think "I'm Jeff Novak". What I experience INSTEAD is..I see "Peter Ward" on my drivers license and think "I don't recognize that guy, I'm not him", yet I don't have an ALTERNATE personality as far as different name, occupation, age, location, set of likes/dislikes,etc.
I've read this as symptoms associated with Dissociation or Dissociative Identity disorder. Can someone please tell me in their experience what this sounds like? Thank you.
Best wishes,
Peter(my actual name
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ok first thing you need to know about us mental health providers that are here on psych central. we are not allowed to practice out profession here and we are not allowed to make diagnostic evaluations on the members of psych central. we are here for support when we need it for ourselves, lend an ear and give our opinions. in other words when we are here we are just like you and all the other members here at psych central who may be plumbers, day care providers, unemployed, disabled what ever. we dont practice our professions on each other no matter what those professions may be.
the only way you will find out what your problems are is by contacting medical and mental health providers located off line near you. make an appointment with your medical doctor and they can refer you for diagnostic testing.
in my opinion what can cause identity crisis and memory problems that you posted about? just about any and every medical problem and just about any and every mental disorder.
example for
me memory problems are a part of dissociative amnesia, dissociative fugue, dissociative Identity Disorder, Bipolar disorder, anxiety disorder, medication reactions, stress, depression PTSD, ...
some of my clients these problems are part of their having schizophrenia, schizo affective disorder, PTSD, depression, Alzheimers, sleep deprivation, anemia, blunt force trauma to the head, ...
contact your treatment providers they can help you figure out what is the problem by doing complete medical and mental evaluations.
