((((((((((googley))))))))))

I wish I had something helpful to say other than giving hugs because I know how that feels. All I know to do is take it a day, hour, or even minute at a time if you have to. There's got to be reasons you made this thread instead of cutting, reasons you're trying to avoid it. Focus on those instead of the things that are making you want to hurt yourself in the first place.

and you know I'm always in chat if you need to talk