I'd like to provide insight to as an "antisocial by proxy" I suppose as a result of persistent/constant mania due to Bipolar Disorder Type I & NPD. Mainly because I have a whole bunch of free time, but also because I consider myself unique in the way I've chosen to function as a result of my perceived issues.

While I am aware that strong waves of emotion exist within me, they are usually fleeting & I feel that it's a personal choice whether I decide to feel connected to them or not. I forget where I read it, so you can excuse this as ******** if you please, but I heard of research done on people with ASPD who were tested on the parts of the brain in which they processed emotion. While neurotypical controls responded strongest in the emotional part of the brain, the amygdala, people diagnosed as antisocial responded similarly in the cognitive area of the brain, the prefrontal cortex.

I'm usually a pretty positive individual, but that's a result of my grandiosity & the fact that I focus on doing a lot to keep myself happy. Though this has become a "disorder" for me at many points in the past & assuredly in some future situations to come, I maintain a lot of focus on assuring that I don't unnecessarily allow my atypicalities defeat me & the progress I am capable of.

I've also managed to have meaningful relationships with others, though the intensity of emotional interactions is questionable at best... Hahahahaha. But everyone functions differently, regardless of the issue they are diagnosed with or labelled as.