thanks for the reply i am seeing a psychologist but the meds he gave me makes me moody and puts me to sleep the entire day i can't live like that i feel so stressed with everything what bothers me the most is my so called friend who is getting married her behavior has just left me with my mouth wide open i never thought she would do that to me she told me it's nothing personal but she is getting married in our church and she said i was not spritually well enough to be in her court i was like what ever just because i miss a couple of meetings does not mean i am not well with god that was so rude who is she to judge me only god can i never met a person that would say something like to me ....what ever